hIdUp tiAda makna..........

Somethings wrong with me...I shouldn't feel like this, I'm usually so sure of myself but I don't know what to think...I don't know what to do...but most of all...I don't understand my life ..  but i'm tired to tryin...every single time i keep tryin...BUT......what i have & what i get just NOTHING! waiting and keep waiting...but till when??....i..... just.. i dont know what to do next....i'm juz give up..!! run there...here....go there...go here....where else??/!! yeah i have no idea...PLEASE.....shuttt up!! i hate every single words u had EVERRRR! u're NOTHING ! nOthiNg OooooooooVER the world....you such a DRAMAKING! sooooooooo dramaaa! u talk NONSENSE....your help was doesn't worth!! make me worst! SUCK! hate YOU was NOT my priority because i will never hate u...i'm just HATE the WAY u ARE!  the WAY u present urself with people and the WAY ur serve others and the WAY ur SELF! u're not respect people. ...ur talking as though an ustaz but ur ACT was ANNOYINGG! just forget it !! 

 you   : kau sepastikkkk!!! 

  :munafikkkk!!! 

                            :a good actor EVERRr!! + poyooo

   :gile kuasaaaa!!!

me      : ggrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
:choiiiiiii!!

I don't regret any of the life decisions I've made...

Because I appreciate the lessons I have learned along the way...

 that have made me what Iam today...

aku masih punyai ALLAH ...wherever i go...for anything i did i know that i have him...

~~~terima kasihh allah..i still breathing till now & almost 25 for today.

~assalamualaikum~

*ini bukan entry putus cinte ok...kbai.~~

Merajuk 5 Tahunnn.....~~~

Tahniahh!! Buat kerajaan baziran tradisional...(erkk salah tulis) ok abaikan...okei  skrg mmg xdapat nk berbuat apa2 sebab PTPTN dah cmfm2 kene bayar balek...baru nak merasa PTPTN free...tol free..harga kete turun..aduhaiiii.....frust menunggeng...haha! but i’m still alive when getting news Selangor will head back to Pakatan Rakyat rule with the pact expected to retain its 36 seats majority & officially was taken by YB MB SELANGOR (khalid ibrahim) dan sekaligus merampas takhta dari parti biru putih dan menjadi pentadbir bagi kerajaan negeri SELANGOR ....ngeh3!  yeahhh dpt air free lagi...n dpt mcm2 lg laa utk sape2 anak selangor tu...wahhh!! UNTONGG JADI ANAK SELANGOR NIE...idop merah kuning!!

*tahniah dipermatang pauh & lembah pantai!!! Semoga anda terus bkhidmat!!

*INIKALILAHHH!!!  ^_____^

*LAINKALILAH...ERKK..~_~

*APELAH NASIB MELAYU  JATUH DITANGAN WARGA CINA...SAMA2 KITA RENUNGKAN...

*KAU BAJU BIRU AKU BAJU KUNING..KITA SAMA  1 BANGSA 1 AGAMA ..APE SALAH NYA  KITA SALING KERJASAMA..KIAMAT NT KITA 1 PADANG JUGA.

*1 ALLAH 1 RASUL 1 MAZHAB  BERSATULAHHHH!!!!

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hidoppp!!!! allahhuakbarrr!!!!

hurmmm politikk xsuda2...adeihhhh!!

kalau dah menang senyap je laaa...jgn nak buat provokasi secara terang terangann....kau tak merasa pakai ptptn kau jgn buat fitnah laaa...kau tak merasa masuk u tu pasal kau boleh ckp mcm tu...jelesss leteww dlu blaja kt skola xpndai xdpt msok u kann??kann??...at least kami msok u ade PENDIDIKAN...org pandang...klo keje krajaan gji tgi...kau ADE?? ade ke org nk ambik pemimpin yg xd pendidikan?? klo pendidikan stakat SPM je tp berfalsafah mcm org tepi jln sape nk votee ...KAMI bukan xnk bayar tp pinjam sikit kene byr smpi bganda2 ....siap ade bunga laa bagaii...so that's why minta dihapuskan...so now kau da menang kau syp...masing2 jln tgungjwb msing2 k...kdg2 mcm nk ckp "melayu nie b**0 " pasal politik gado sesama sendiri...mencarut sana sini bagaii...kau gado sampai berdarah skali pon xd pemimpin nk kasi kau duit...at least calon-calon yang bertanding tu ade gak bagi sumbangan nk bantu kau tu sbg rakyat...yang kau tu jadi rakyat ape kau bagi kat malaysia niee???ape sumbangan kau bagi??rakyat untung takk??? bagi pegaduhan..n buat perpecahan sesama melayu?? mcm tu?? bagoss laaa sampaii kiamat pon xd sape yg untung...sumer tu nikmat & rezeki dr allah jgn kufur nikmat...JUZ TERIMA KASIH  AJE LAA...setakat ade air liur untuk bertegang lidah sesama manusia baek tobat laa kawann...kau islam aku islam..1 mazhab 1 kalimah so tlg laa hentikan semua provokasi murahan sebegini rupa...malaysia hidup aman bebas..kalau nk cetuskan provokasi mcm nie pergi hidup kat iran israel sana tu...

"BN’s only target of attack was the attempt to sow discord between races and religions". 

no wonder la...penyokong dia pun duk kutuk parti lain gk...achanerr tuu...

* Penyokong  nie yg lebih2 kutuk sana sini pumpang bagai...padahal pemimpin senyap je...rilex sudahh...mcm laa parti tu  menang calon tu nk bagi kau pangkat n duit bribu2 pn....hidup kau mcm tu gak.. gaji kau paras lutut gk..standard spm gk....kalah ponn duit kau banyak tu gak.... xd nyer PM nk kasi upah atas kewibawaan sbb mgutuk parti lain nyerr...TAKKKDERRR OK!!  PM & calon lain pon xnak usik duit kau...buat penat je kau part time kutuk parti tu parti nie sana sini xdpt gaji pon!! phuihhh!! lebih baik kau duk diam2 je..wt pnt je mrh2..baek mrh ank2 kau yg nkal tu..at least berbaloi dia dgr ckp kau..heh!

haiiiiiiii... ~_^ ~~~

 wekends nie tak tahu nak buat ape...mniarap dah..merangkak dah..meraung dah..menunggeng pon dahh...arghhh! ape nak buatt haaa.....hurmmmm.....

apee ekkk ade katt dapurrr......intaii sikettt...ermmmmm

haaaa...melantak bendalah hijauu niee ok gak....erk??!! apekahh?/

ehhhhh..mangga?? ermmm?? yeahh...i get it!!!

 krim ini sangatt degilll mcm tuan diaa...hahahahaah!!!

ermmmm...

setelah setengah jam...

tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....horeyyyy my first trial....................hohohohohoho!!! ^__________^

siappppp!!!! ini mangoes crepe bukan durian ok!

gud for your health!!! 

ini jugeekk....bole buat 3/4 kali msok toilet woo...jd mnum laa ia slaloo..hahah!

 okeiii i'm done !!! tingkatkan prestasi kurangkan controversi!!! PEACE YAWR!! 

ini mase lapangku....dah lama tak berkarya.....thanks to encik utube...especially this site..Ti Dak,    TheIcedCapp's Channel,   Qaisara Syafiza,   Wani6697 ,Afie Khalid, yang paling ak sukee budak nie Nurul Ain Mohd Khairulazhar  they all nie sume utubers yang   ak anggap dah mcm mentor ak gk laa since berkecimpung dalam dunie musicc ini...chehhwahh....kecimpungg sangattt  letewww!! hakhak..!!.bilik dah jdi mcm jamming room dah..haha! 

p/s : lepas nie nk buat crepe stoberi & cuklat plakk....

:samsung galaxy note II sangatt beshh + seronokkk blh wechatt!! hahaha..jakun kejap! 

:tetibe ak rse mcm annoying dgn zain saidin tuu...kau dah tersingkir buat cara tsingkir laa berokk!!...u are loserrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ok!!!! kau tu zero je dlm bidang masakan nie jgn nk bidas sgt laa ape chef ckp!!  tau laa kau tu penghibur tp skrg kau dlm rncgn apee derr?? dah le buat pancake hangus lepas tu masak pancake gune kuali wat kuey tiow ade hati mtak diberi peluang!! phuihhh!!! heyy kemonn laaa be profesional laa...err cik ta?? org cmnie kee kau nk buat suami?? mudeee?? barann?? harap rupa je....perghhh! memangg takkk laaa! heeeeeeeeee emoo lakk aku tetibe...dah kenapee ?? hahahaha! kbye~~~~

:sape2 yg ade astro tu cer tgk episode pyingkiran zain saidin dlm masterchef S3...ushar sndrik kt utube ekk...mcm poyoo jerkk..huhu! 

I LOVE MY GUITARRRR EVERRRR!!!!!!

aku kah yg tergedixx??

  GWIYOMIIII....GIGIGI GWIYOMIII!!!!    ARGHHHH!! Gedixxxx sudahhh!! hahaahaha...but really nice try....owesomee........creative.....!!! hahahaha....ehh scenario skrg nie ak tgk da mcm2 bnde pelik2 dorang buattt...buttt motipppp???? untukk apee?? cthnya mcm video aweks cun niee....  

 

yerpp i know that this vdeo are presently special for her husband but why need to show off wif all of the world...??  sbb ko rasa ko comel laa?? okbye.~~bukan kee auratt tu...xkee suami die nt yg kene tanggung dosa tu...mmg la xd cacat celanyer...tp k"manjaan" & k"cantikan" beliau kan dah buat rmai llaki gedix kt lua tu jtuh hati...even married already...haaaa?? klo laki ak yg duk layan vdeo nie tetiap mlm laa mmg ak siat2 je mata tu...hahaha..kejam! huhuh.i'm joke!   ok abaikann....next ... alsoo thisss......

 

kau nie dah kenapaa??  motippp???comel letewww....dah besaa ponn nk bajet jugek...ANNOYINGGG!! haha!!

 

 

 errrrr....inii ehh??? errrr...auwwww....hakhak...ahh kau ponn sama....rasa diri itu comel...ye mmg comel ponnn....awk buat kt sy tiap2 mlm pn xper...hehe~~ tp sy laaaagii suke klo awk buat mcm niee....    

 

heheheheh...i'm really adore wif him~~GI NGOJII!!! ^_______^  

 

haaaaaaaa kanak-kanak nieee takkperr laaa..dah memangg comel ponn...dan jelas2 laa memang dia bukan bajet comel ponnn....kanak2..apee laa sangat pemikiran dorg....comell kann??!!! i likeee!       hahahaahaha..oklahh saje-saje jeee nk luahkn rasa xpuas hatii...yelaa so far ak tgk kt youtube ade yg komen negatif ade yg komen positive....roughly mmg laaa mereka2 yg wat vdeo gwiyomi nie mmg xdinafikan laa kecomelan mereka....comel sangatt!! tp apee motip buat cenggitu ekk?? ye lumrah manusia mmg suka pada pujian....sampai ada yang keawang-awangan dilambung pujian bebagai2...tp ko lupa yg sume tu hanya pinjaman di dunia...klo allh tu nk tarik balek..kejapp je...bile2 je dia suke..amanahla pd pmberianNYA...jgalah drpd pandangan yg bkn ajnabi...so syukur dgn apa yg kita ada..xperlu nk publisiti murahan sgt buat vdeo  trencat mcm tu....juz smata2 nk raih pujian je...bukan laa jeless sgt ponn tp kdg2 ade btol gk pd mreka yg komen negatif tu...huhuhuh..ok laa sekadar membrikan pndapat ak je..juz nottin..~~ PEACE YAWR!!         p/s : wlopun ak agk kureng dgn vdeo2 gwiyomi nie...tp i'm still like the songs...haaa kau siap buat ringtone lg kat hp...hambikk kauu! hahahaha!!!       p/s : hariii niee pegii tanjung karanggg....dah lama tak pegi sana...cantik sangat permandangan sepanjang perjalanan...sawah bendang terbentang meluasss ...tenang sangat2.....seolah2 sedang tgk "bakal suami" plakk....adessss...aku sudahhh parahh!!! ohh nooo!! haha!! gatal kauu niee! gamba2 sume xdapat nk di upload lg ...sbab nk tgk mastercheff celebrity+ penattt + ngntukkk....hehe.tgu next entry yerp...okbye!~~  

k@mu sAja....

haiiii.....jam sedang menunjukkan tepat pukul 1 pagi....kalo belum tepat tu...tepatkan laa sendiri ye....malam nie...ehh malam ke..xper laa..nk malam gak laa...ok2...dah lama tak merapu..sesekali merapu sorang diri ok gak....takda sape marah lg ponn...papamama pon dahh tidoo..ak on9 nie pon dlm  bilik sorang diri sambil ditemani bantal bushyuk dan tilam empuk yang setia bersamaku tatkala malam menjelma tiba dan hening melabuhkan tirainya....paling penting my bestie a.k.a my lurving lappy...ohhh tidakk...hehehee..yeahh actually ak xtaw nk coretkan apa untuk mlm nie...jarang2 ak update blog mlm2...kali terakhir update mlm2 pn mse kt Uni dlu...

ermmm ntahh laaa 

...semakin hari semakin dekat....bulan 6 nie akak ak dah pon nk melangsungkan pkahwinan beliau...ermm umo beliau baru 27...dannn aku??? br nak masok 25....ohh goshh!! bf??? still xdak agi....bukan xd...ade tu adalahhh tp xterkenan dihati ini...then at same time parents plak xbrapa stuju ngn pilihan hati ini....ermm mls nk lawan cakap beliau...terkadang ade betol gak aku ignore kan si dia...bukan ape...yelaaa dah la jao..pastu keje pon mcm xbrapa nk harap sangat nak2 klo kwen gn aku nanti xnak la ak idop susa...bkn laa xblh idop susa...tp ibaratnya klo dh kwen nt...mmg dh nmpak 

sgt nt ak yg akan tanggung mkn mnum dia,,,ohh tidakk

sbb klo ikutkn gji ak lgi tgi dari dia...ermmmm aduhaiii...cinta tu mmg laa...tp cinta agung mcm mn ponnn klo nk kwen pon dahh susa...blom kwen lg tuu....adushhhh...susa..susa...bkn la ak pndang harta atau kekayaan...yg pntg bg aku adalah hati...tp mslhnye hati ko klo tulus mcm kisah adam & hawa skali ponn zmn skrg nie klo ade cinta pn tp klo ko xd harta bnda susa gk...zmn skrg nie2-2 tu paling pntg...wlopn agama bnda 1st skali ...haishh susanyerr...

ak dah mls nk sailang ckp papamama ak lgi...serikkk!!! huhuhu!! betol wehh! dah 2,3 kali ak dpt 'cash' allah tu bagi kat aku tiap kali ak sailang ckp mereka...huuhuh...

sampai bab jdoh pn ak jd tkt ...dah klo dorg xstuju ngn plihan aku...ak akur aje...ak redha ngn plihan dorg...pilihan dorg?? ohh my guccii!! ahaks! ok..ak no komen...emmm actually yg paling ak risaukn skrg nie...dh lerrr tgl ak sorg je duk tkontang kanting je tnpa arah dn tjuan hdop...mst time tu nt spupu spapat mak cik pak cik sebok tnya "kauu bilee lagii??" ohHH DAMNNNN!!!! mmg takk laaa ak nk jawabb....cu time pengebumian aku tnya kat dorg soklan cenggini "awok bile lagi??" ahaks!! agakk kurang di ajar nampak gayanyer...hahahaa...mau makan sup selipaa aku time tu...huhu...haaa soklan2 cepumas nie laa kadang2 wat aku jadi haru ke biru nk mnjwbnyerr...lemasss + letihhh...adeihhh...kemonn larrr...talk to my hand ok....

xkesahh la nk tnya pon soklan cenggitu...tp dlm keadaan ak skrg...bg ak soklan2 tu agak sensitip siket....sbabnyerr...mslh ak sndri pn xslsai lg..dgn mslh ngn si dia lg....hal keje lagikk ..aduhaiii....so ak juz declare I'M SINGLE rite now...malas nk pk psl cintan cintun nie...biarlaa org kata umo dah byk skali pn...byk bnde yg perlu ak slsai kn sblom ak melangkah ke suatu alam yg ak rasakan tanggungjawab ak akan smakin berat...dan semakin ..semakin laa....janji tak semakin gemok....hahaaha...

ermmm actually ak adelaaa crush kt someone nie....hehehe..org terdekat ajee...huhuhu...tp sbg seorang pmpuan xkan laa ak nk stat dlu kann...yelaaa juz tgk dr jauhh jelaa ak mampu...ermm yelaaa org kata klo nk wat calon suami tu bolehh laaa...wahahaha...mianggg plakk!! tp tahh cmne laa ak leh ter "jatuh hati" kejappp kt bkal abg ipa ak ...dah knapa ntah...kahkahkah!!! ermmmmmm klo laa ade lelaki mcm tu....hehehehee kann bez....hahaha...juz jokeee!!!!  ok laaa dah merapu tah apa laa nie....jom tidooo!!!

p/s : sronoknyer tgk org pndai maen gitarr....mcm-mcm chord tau...mcm2 lagu leh strumming....hahahaha...

:keje ohhh kejee.... 

:apesal mata xngantuk lagi nehh....

bezz tgk thiss girl....superb arr...sore pon bezz...rmai btol gades/jejaka youtube skrg niee smenjak kmunculan ainan tasneem/najwa latep n seangkatan dengannya...btw korg mmg the bezz laa...byk gk ak blaja dr org2 mcm nie...xpyh susa g cls gitar mhl2 nuhh...huhhuh...oklahh bye~~~ all the bezz...

seriusss stresss...!!!!!

cuakk!! gelabah!! risauu !!! huh! sumpahh ak takottt untuk g exam PTD esok....dan esok adalah pertama kali ak menduduki peperiksaan permohonan jawatan dlm SPA....sumpahh ak xtaw apa soalan yang bakal ak jawab esok...yang ak tahu ianya adalah soalan tentang pengetahuan am,penyelesaian masalah..dan esei...malah cth soalan pn ak xpena tgk...yg aku tahu lebih ke arah tentang malaysia of course la kann xkann bangladesh plakk...ermm actually aku bukan laa takut sangat pasal nk g exam nie...yg aku cuak kan ak xtaw sape calon-calon lain yang akan menduduki dewan peperiksaan sama ngn aku....klo time spm,stpm & kt UNi dlu ak xd la rsa neves sgt mcm nie sbb ak tau ape soalan yg akan keluar n dengan siapa yg akan sama2 jawab exam dgn aku nanti.....dah lerr ak g sensorang esokk....xd mmbr lakk tu...lagikk laa nevess...at least ade sorg dua mmbr wat tman jd laa..bole wat sembang2 mse b4 n after exam tu...mmbr sama skola dlu ade la yg dpt tmpt yg sama tapiiiii kawasan lain-lain plakkk....adessssss!! ntahlaaaa ak just revision siket2 je nie pn...sbb ak tau result dia nt cmfm2 ak failed...hahahaha...tkot gk bile bca kt certain blogger bgtaw yg ade yg calon PTD yg dh 5,6 kali exam still failed...perghhh gileee laa!!! xper tu sume depends pada rezeki masing2....aku percaya pd takdir..Ntah lerr ak no komen psl EXAM esk....papepon ak berserah je pd allah...wlopun org ckp juz skadar exam je pn blm tntu ko dpt ke x lantak la....yg pntg ak dah cuba untuk stage yg ptama..bkn sng nk dpt pgilan exam nie...da dkat stahun ak tgu....tahun nie br dpt ...2pn juz exam...xpela cuba je wlopn exam je pn...yg pntg usaha tu dah ada.....klo  ditakdirkan ak failed xper...ak redha..mgkin blm mase lg utk aku..ok la papepon sgala-galanya akan terjawab esok!!! aku doakan buat kwn2 yg sama2 akan bjuang utk exam PTD esok all the bez k! berpantang maut sblom ajal!! ehh ye ke?? hentam aje la...KBYE!!~~~

bAck to DecemBer.....

hey!! wake upppp!!!! here its April!!! 2013...........nottt 2012.....its APRIL 2013!!! ok2...done!! here i am its on april 2013...yeahh actually its not about december..juz about something that i have done before that make me remember its as December...the thing is, who am i in december n  what i am doing its the same thing who am i right here....what is it?? it is about FREE....yeahhh i'm FREE now ...hahaha...ok2...

i'm just a nonsence right here....i dun know what to talk....just something that i want to share with...ermmm its about me...my self..n the rest...actually FYI i already resign "there" n already found a new job....but its comingg soon.....i dun know when...juz wait n see...about a month to go...yeah i need saving my last payment...because this coming june i will doing something with that....need to expense for anything...my medicine...my thing n etc..u know money..wherever there will lose in a times...ok stop here....

 just now i got call from others company that offer me for a job...plastics factory in sg buloh...the position is production assistant....ermmm....yeahh...sounds good...but.... i need to think about it... from the positive perspective..so lucky because my office very near with my place...about 10-15 minute to arrive there...zero traffic jammed...buttttt the think is...from my opinion , i think is not worth to work there because...i was told that i need to work overtime..then ,i will not be paid if i'm working after office hour...office hour is about 8 am.-6 pm...that;s means if i'm working after 6 ...i just work as a "coolie" there....no payment are be paid after that...ouhhhh suckk!!! waste my time! therefore, i need to working on a saturday...about 8 am - 3 pm on every 2 weeks a month. salary??? ouhhh....the salary is very unresonable...huh! i need to pay ptptn..car loan...blablablabla...doesnt enough meyhh!! so that's why i have made my decision to refuse their offer....yeahh i had to....hurmmm...except if the employer will fully my request...hehehe..bolehh kee?? suke2 je..ok la..even nowadays so hard to fine a better job..even how higher your smart...how higher our education...currently the employer still need the EXPERIENCE...an its BONUS if u have some skill that can be use in industry...so "hendak seribu daya tak nak seribu dalih" try as u can...rezeki dimana-mana....insyaallah...just pray to allah...all the best for all blogger n for those who a job seekers...just grab what beside you instead of to be unemployed..just accept it as an experience...okbye~~~ 

p/s : xd pglmn nk pglmn...dh ade pglmn sjil tgi2 xnk plak...ade kee nk tgk spm...pnt ak   ptostat sjil2 ak aje mcm tu...buduss!! xfhm betol employer nie.

     :crepe is back....i like durian & corn!! blueberry is cominggg soonnn!!  ^_______^

     :keje sales coordinator tu mcm mn eh..huhuhu..tnya pon kne mrh..mlyu sesama mlyu mmg xle tlg la..ape daa..puiiii!!

    :yeahh sy da pandai strumming...tapii tuning plak xreti sgt...adeihhh...mcm mn nk jd najwa latepp & ainan tassneem nie...keh3!!

 :ko ade spm jerr...keje nk bagos2 susa la..skill pn zero..komputer pn xtaw..klo spm straight A xper gk...nk kata kiter plak..mcm aku nie xpe la keje bgos2...mmg nie mkn dia... hahahahahaahah!!! poyo jerkk!